Since we moved to my in-laws, the biggest thing that I have lacked is routine. With the kitchen being on a different floor than we were “living,” no yard, not having any of our own furniture and things, etc, I’ve just struggled. I have struggled badly. Depressed, irritable, negative… waking up late… not spending time with Jesus… I had absolutely no motivation to do anything… The house was a wreck (our part anyway); the laundry was backing up.
When my realtor told me this weekend that we should go back to our house until closing (since it’s not being shown anymore), I decided that it would be best.
So… yes… we have gone back and forth… we are back at “our” house for another 3 weeks-month, then we’ll head back to my inlaws until we close on a “new to us” house. But, I had to do this in order to come to my senses for a little bit.
One day of being here and I feel like I’m back to my “old” self. The house is clean. I have had motivation to work on laundry, the dishes, and keep up with the house (because let’s face it, it’s an all day job!). I woke up this morning at 5:00, went running, showered, and had time with Jesus all before the kids woke up. I feel so much better mentally and emotionally.
I know that it is a choice that I make. I know that if I chose to, I could make it work better at my inlaws. I know that we are going back to my inlaws in a few weeks (and I’m SO thankful that they allow us to live there anytime we need to!), so I will prepare starting now to have a better attitude and work a little harder when we go back. That’s all I can do .
In the meantime, I will live one day at a time, and focus on my family.