I spend too much time online.  It’s my escape.  Right now, I’m so stressed, and instead of dealing with things, I escape to the internet… Facebook especially.

One thing that I have found, though, is that I believe it causes me more anxiety.  Not only am I not dealing with things, I’m being lazy, not focusing on my kids, and reading everyone else’s opinions about things.

Something that I noticed the other day is that when I’m not wasting my time away on the computer, I am less anxious, less irritable, and more focused on my family.

It’s sad, really… that the computer can be such an addiction… But, it is what it is.  And I am admitting it so that I can do something about it.

I have too much life to live and too many people counting on me to allow my time to be wasted online.

Another thing that is frustrating to me is the amount of judgmental Facebook and blog posts out there.  It’s constant.  If you’re not doing things the way others think, you’re not doing them right.  Everything is your fault.  I just can’t live my life anymore by others’ words.  I’m done with that!  I can’t allow it to steal my joy and make me feel like I never measure up.

I am ready to live life, enjoy each day, and focus on my family.

I deactivated my Facebook account today.  It seems like a quick decision, but it’s one that I have been contemplating for a while.  I will still be blogging some… but I just have to put my computer away and use it only sometimes.  Right now, I get up and turn the computer on immediately.  I can’t make that the first thing that I do every day!

I’m off to make a picnic lunch and hang out with my kids… and to live life!  See ya!