Today, April 1, 2013, I feel the best that I have felt in a long time. I have made some necessary changes, and they have been very beneficial to my health… physically, emotionally, and mentally (spiritually is a whole other level).
The biggest thing is that I am finally, consistently, walking my talk.
For years I have blogged about things that I would do for a short time… and then I would struggle and stray. I would give in to food/drink temptations, stop working out when it would be difficult for my schedule, stop doing things because they took too much time or effort, and most importantly, I did everything out of emotion (eat, drink, yell, etc). I would go from one extreme to the next, struggling to maintain any balance.
I am by far from perfect, and I’m willing to admit and accept that more than ever. The biggest difference is that most of the time I make decisions and choices instead of just allowing them to happen “to me.” I take one day at a time, and when one day doesn’t go so great, I try again the next day. I don’t give up because things aren’t perfect… because I know that they never will be.
My decisions are based on God’s word and/or how they make me feel physically. I try not to base things on emotion, but I know that for me, my emotions do tell me a lot. When I’m very stressed all the time, there’s something not right… either spiritually or physically. So while I don’t base decisions on my emotions, I do take them into consideration. I will say that there are times when my kids just make me stressed, but I’m able to recognize that . Sometimes it’s not my “fault”… there are times when there are outside circumstances that I have to learn to handle/deal with.
These are things that I am doing more consistently, that have made a huge difference for me:
- Reading God’s word daily, and praying to Him often
- Praying about situations that worry me/stress me out instead of trying to control them myself (I am in the waiting stages of a major decision, and instead of being stressed by it, I’m just trusting that God has an amazing plan!).
- Loving on/praying for others more!
- Limiting online time (not being online as much when the kids are awake)
- Trying not to yell so much (though I’m not perfect in this area, I have gotten so much better)… it makes a huge difference in our household.
- Reading books about God’s love, mercy, grace, and justice (I have been learning so much about the heart of God lately, and I’m constantly reminded how blessed we are). My favorites right now involve authors by the last name of Hatmaker… Brandon and Jen.
- Working out regularly… Getting back outside to run… Strength training… etc. Having a goal in this area- wanting to run a 5k in May.
- Eating whole, real foods. These include raw milk, raw cheese, fresh ground/soaked wheat foods (homemade), lots of fruits and veggies, coconut oil, fermented cod liver oil (Green Pasture) and raw foods supplements (Vitamin Code/Garden of Life), healthy meats (try to buy grass fed, but that doesn’t always happen), cage free eggs (mostly from our chickens), etc.
- Allowing myself to sway from that list at times, and not beating myself up. I’m learning to just enjoy food! The more I make myself feel guilty over not eating perfectly 100% of the time, the harder it is for me to be consistent.
- Not drinking sodas (this is HUGE). Not only do I feel better physically, but it is a huge weight off emotionally/physically/spiritually because it was an addiction that I could not kick for years.
- Eating when I’m hungry (I tend to allow myself to get past the point of just a little hungry to the point of starving, and then I just want to bite everyone’s head off). I have to be careful not to let me blood sugar dip too much.
- Becoming more consistent in disciplining my kids and not just getting mad all the time (though I do “just get mad” at times, it’s not all day, every day!).
- Letting go of the little things that just aren’t a big deal (loudness does NOT equal poor choices on the kids’ part… they are just being kids!).
- Allowing myself to grieve when those times come (not ignoring it, but giving into it).
- Allowing myself to be human, but knowing that decisions that I make can truly affect my physical, emotional, and mental state. There has to be a balance here. Everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial.
- Be as organized as possible; have as much routine as a typical day would allow.
- Staying busy! For some, this would cause more stress… but I find that if I’m up and moving, then I feel my best… and the kids are much happier. So while my to-do lists can be pretty long, it feels good to be moving all the time (and being productive)! I allow myself rest at the end of the day (go to bed early!), and on Sundays (take naps, don’t workout, and just enjoy the day)! Oh, and there are days in which I just throw out the to-do list and take a nap with my Ethan .
- Most importantly… Making memories with my family. I find that if I’m focused on spending time with and loving my family, I’m not so focused on myself. I used to think that making memories meant spending money and doing extravagant things, but I have found that most good memories made are free .
Again, I’m not saying that I have attained some kind of perfection, because we all know that will never happen. I am just at a point of contentment, consistency, and joy that I haven’t experienced in a long time!